There is something about Christmas time gift giving that makes me uncomfortable. I like to give gifts, but I'm not a big fan of receiving them. This is true for me when getting gifts from people that I'm very close to, but it's especially true when I'm not close to the other person at all e.g. getting small gifts from work colleagues, or "white elephant" type gift exchanges with extended family. Part of my issue, I think, stems from the same reasons I don't accept complements well. It always seems somewhat disingenuous because I never feel like I've done anything to deserve it. Yet I am always quite grateful, and that gives rise to the second major issue - I'm never sure that I properly express how grateful I am, so I mostly end up feeling something more akin to guilt. I know that the gift giving has nothing to do with me at all. People give because it makes them happy to do so. In that respect, my "worth" is irrelevant. A gift can't ...
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